What should I do?

I really do not know what should I do. I really love you, but do u know you had hurt me?because both of you dono what happen, act I know u like me but not love, u really love her. Even till nowshe will keep thinking back u, ask it help whenever she got problem

WaiTing

Whats going on?

Me and you, now, is in what situation?

I hate this feeling, you can simply make my emotion spread out uncontrollable. It is scary, I canot comtrol my feelings now, I can just cry out in just next second. Everyday I got feeling of tired. Should I let go? Break up is it the best way to solve this problem?

Am I expecting too much? I just hope you spend more time with me is it really wrong?

I learned. U don’t have time to accompany me to watch movie, I will be sad, but I learned to ask other to watch with me. And now you come and question me why wana watch with other people while we already promise to watch together.

But……until when I need to wait? You promise me to watch the movie with me last month, I wait until the movie already not showing in cinema. That is not the 1st time already.

While i waiting for you, is really hurting me.

Hate tH@t

I very hate people wronged (yuan wang) me; sure no one will like it as well. But it depends on how you settle this problem. Some people might take it as “what ever”. Some maybe will take it as the person who had “yuan wang” him/her is an action of jealous or the people mentally EQ was LOW.

While for me, I hate that, I will keep in inside my heart. Yea..I know is stupid.

Honestly, I really dint cheat on you. What I said is true, just wana ask you a question, do u really need me to show it as evidence only you will believe?

YOU and me are best friend, when you told me you doesn’t mind and hope we can be together. I really appreciated, but what I tell you is true, I really treated you as best friend, and I really not sure my feelings, I really did fall in love for her. Why you say I cheated you? Why you just listen to our friends that I am escape from previous experience and simply say a lie?

Do you really think that only you get hurt? What about me? Someone keeps asked me why I wana lie to you, some said why I hurt you, why I cheat you, why I doesn’t …….

“Don’t you feel that because of you, his life become like this?” **nice friends of you

This happened last 2 years, until now still got some people came and asked me, did I feel GUILTY because I cheated you, and make you become like THIS. Says that I am FAKE.

I do not express out, doesn’t means I admit it. Things already happened, everyone got their opinion, they already TRUST in you, they already feels that you are PITY.

So do I still need explain? huh? need it?

FORGOT IT!!!

SoMe1eMo~~

I keep asking myself, why I always think too much? Why I am a negative minded? Izzit really what I did also wrong? Why i am such a Failure?

Once awhile, I am a positive, happy go lucky person. I will speak out what ever my feeling as I wish, I wont care for other people feeling. This is because I am ego person, I got a good result, and my big family treats me well, what ever I want sure I will get.

Also because of my ego and doesn’t care about other’s feeling, and all are leaving me. It seem like no one will really care about me. I do not know what happen on me, I became EMOTIONAL.

I started to care about how people look at me, I hope the point of view from them all is good, I am a good and polite enough, which all parents should be proud of. So I keep all the things inside, I won’t reply defiantly or quarrel with anyone. If you say I am wrong. OK I am wrong, I will keep quite.

I feel stress, I don’t know how to express out my feeling of sad and angry, I just keep quiet. Because I thought when I don’t quarrel, then the people will forgive me.. no matter what.. Because I know sure I did something wrong, only others will angry of me, say about me, so there is no point for me to argue. So I always think back what I had done? Why I make people angry of me? Why I always did something wrong.

When I “mang zhang”, I will choose to stop saying anything. But, I do not realize my face was “black”. Also because I keep all things inside, I got sick, I can feel the pain at my neck whenever I feel sad or angry. I cannot express out my feeling, I can’t even speck out a word. Really not even a word..so I choose to keep all inside my heart.