she smile so sweet..

looking back at her pictures, i realise something, no wonder u love her so much..

really, she like to smile, happy go lucky attitude, just same as u... her smile really sweet, no wonder u cant forget her... suddenly.. i feel that ...i am too weak to keep on holding... i feels that...u n her like got the connection...

she is the 1 who make u smile and laugh, i am the one who make u sad.
she is the 1 who make u say u love her d most, i am the one u said so tired with me.
she is the 1 u say more happy to be with, i am the 1 who u said dono how to face me.

thanks for ur love, it is really happy to be with u. u really did bring me happiness that i never thought i could get. u bring laugh to me.

those happy memory i wont forget, hope u will remember as well.. haha u know lar, u are forgetful...

where are u??

At home, i like alone, no 1 really care on me, no matter my leg injured, i walk alone everynight when go back to home, did i save to back home.. hahaha..

i am alone, walking alone in a dark street every night , but i still haven use to it. it is scary, no people around, alot motors, and also few cases happened last 2 days. but who cares?

i dono what happen to me, i became the old me! which dont really like to talk, dono how to show out feeling. when u asked me what happen, not i dont 1 answer, is dono how to answer. when i said out my problem and feeling, do u really listen? u said u got, but i am so sorry, it seem u dont. u just put ur thought on me, i am not happy go lucky, do u really think i not wisg i am one of them too?

let go those sad things, haha, let go, how? it keep coming, never changes, yea, nothing i can do, then isit really means that i just accept whatever it is?

why i am not reporting then u will boh form? why dont u report? u keep say u got.. but please think deeply, u r only sometimes..

he come fetch me back n go pasar malam, i asked u how? u very angry coz u say i hope to go, instead of straight away reject.. but when i asked u if she request u to sent her back how, u said u will...hahaha... what is this? is it really doesn;t matter? really? i think too much?

next week u go UK, i ask u wed can spend time wth me, u answer me with a funny answer... " why wana spend time har?" LOL.. why..i really dono how to answer...

i am sorry make u pik cik, i really dono what should do and what should i think already.i tell u my family problem, u said is like this geh lah, dont choi them lo, dont care about it.. hahaha.. that is family, is that so easy?

i really happy on what u do, really appreciate, but i really hope u listen to me, and really think about whats is going on... i am not say now Ok then really ok.. problem still there...


how to tell u.. how to express.. i very tired of crying alone in a staircase..

where are u?

emo-ing

why our thinking so different?

next week u already go UK. u not really allow me go airport, then i said i off wed to spend sometime with u, i know is only 4 month a, but withing this four month i cant sms u like now i can simply get through u, i cant call u often, i not use to it..understand????

when u say y need to meet, that time, i really wanted to cry as loud as i can...
i tot after i close the phone i can cry out loud.. but i cant, just tears drop quietly.

why u dont understand..

What I want?

feel very unhappy. yesterday, end work at 9pm, alone sit at the bus station to wait my bus come. feeling very uncomfortable with a heavy, fizzy head, and also feel very cool. watching everyone, pass and go, feel so annoying. while waiting bus, i also waiting u to sms me. i know u are working, very busy, but just hope that i can chat more with u. but when i get those message like saying "awhile only the bus will come" or "as long got people there then u will b safe". when receive this, i dono what should i reply or respond. i feel very sick.

one and a half hour later, the stupid bus came, sitting inside a damn cool bus, i really hoping that u are by myside.. did i requested too much? i shouldn't hope this right? he is working..i know.. just when i am sick, i hope that he care more. today, the whole day also i called him, he seem very busy. why u seem so far for me? i dono what u doing as well.

i need u badly but u are not here, everytime also like this, when i need u, sure u are not around.