1st of August

This few days very happy, because of something stupid I also can stay happy for few days. Feel very good for this. Because I am changing, changing to be a happier person. What make me change? Is the way he treat me, I can feel his patient towards me. Very happy that we can stay online to chat everyday very nicely, dint argue, he promise me he will do so, and then I also be patient with him, if I dint do so. Then I need to train myself to give him sometimes. In a relationship is really needed to be patient. But I really stupid wor, will always think that he will in love with someone, when he told me he will travel with 2 others gals for this 1 month trip, honestly, I feel uncomfortable. Do not know why, maybe I will think that he will get closer to them then will slowly like their personality or how. And when I heard he always said he chat with our classmate, the 2 gals, they are very good in personality, very pretty and attractive. Then I will like.. oh My God.. I gona loss him..haha..feel stupid..yes I am stupid no confidence at all..sucks…

Yesterday I had a bad dream again…haiz… the dream is. He back to his ex, while I with my ex, then we meet some where and have a dinner.. the dream is weird. How can I sit together with them? I dono.. Why I will dream that I back together with him? i dono..

I always dream he back to his ex..izit a clue to me?