Break promises in the next day

yesterday.. u promise me u will not reply her and stop contact atleast for now..

today..u call her 1st..

sum.. izit so important that he call her 1st means he do wrong?

sum, izit they canot contact?

sum, izit so wrong they contact? even just friens?

sum, he already told u the truth, why u still sad?

i do not know.. i just feel pain..

now i am learning to trust and believing in him, forgot the pass..life hapily togather..

but.. within a week.. what u promise today, u also break it the other day..just the other day.. how i make sure i can trust in u?

do i make is too serious?

i am sincerely apologise.. just.. i take promise abit serious.. i very scare people break my promise.. like my mom.. she said i am a good gal, sure she will sayang, yea she sayang, but sometime whjat she did..really hurt me..

human also will be wrong right? so u dint really wrong right? cane forgive right?

vyen.. i just... really sad..u promise u wont contact her ..but 2day u call her..

how to say, i really never think of want u to stop contact her forever..i really dint..atleast...not this moment.. i just............................

and why u wana hide the truth from me .....

i hate it..can i just stop the fucking tears from droping...