day 2 failed

yesterday was so success.. i tot i will have a sweet dream, and yet, i dint..

i dream that u leave me, u dont even want to care about me and really want a break up..

once i wake up from the scary dream.. i feel more pik cik.. i keep feel something bite on me..i really cant sleep.. no aircorn..the fan is only facing to sister..i am hot.. but i cant take off blanket..

is how suffer ..i cant think too much.. canot think why they wan do liek this.. i really dono what shud i think..how to be positive?

they wan me to feel hot to keep fit?

got something bite me because bite me better than bite sister?

is very itchy..even some part is damn not well...

then so hardly i can sleep..but then now again..stomach pain..what the hell was this?

i just want to sleep..

ok..finally i can fall asllep again.. now my mum turn..keep on come in to my room.. switch on the light.. off it.. on it..

damn it... i just really tired..

okie okie..can sleep ad..then again.. sis turn up the volume when they want to watch movie.. pls la.. why dont u all close the door.. is really noisy..i really hate this..

everytime like this..when i got exam..u all already keep like this.. i just wana sleep...please dont disturb ppl..

i really do not know hwat shud i think.. u keep ask me to let go..dont think.. i dont think..then..i still feel.. i feel sanfu when stay in home.. i wana go out.. but then.. u keep said alot think that u r worry or how how how..

i just wan to relax...

okie la..when i feel better..stay at home..dont 1 u worry la.. then u call me to ask me go ur house for diner.. i really feel appreciate.. but i really got pressure there...

my mom nt really like me always go ur house..and then ..u ask me to overnight at u there... honestly..i also hope to overnight.. atleast i can sleep better.. but u know i cant..i already said canot..please dont keep said that..

u know how i feel? i really want to do so..but i still ned to reject u..u know how hard was that?

i am so sorry...