tried to be another me day 1

Today, I had tried to be another possitive me..

when i wake up, 1st time i do was smile , and sent a message to him..

i keep be patient to do my stuff.. and is really works.. i get to hit the target i suppost to have..

then when i meet u.. i really felt so happy, and keep smile with u..

u felt weird because i smile whole day..haha

i really enjoy that u accompany me to my gathering.. is so fun that we keep chit chta..

so sorry that i know u r so tired and yet u still fetch me back...

in the mean time..u told me kiwi attend ur NS gathering.. u also been invited..

normally..when i know u being invited..bt u dint tell me..i am sure..100% sure...i will emo.. but why 2day dont have geh?

coz i know she got attend.. if u are being invite..and u never tell me..sure i will think alot..like did she the 1 who sms u..bla bla bla..

bt..it seem like i just..dint really think..is this a good way?

honestly..i still hope u will be honest to me and tell me everything at 1st..is just like u want me to do so...

i do not know hat going on with me..i do not know this changes is good or bad...

but i know 1 bad thing.. when said about her..i really got abit dono how..

Dear God, can let me forgot about her?

what i can do leh?